Family

We made it home and my heart hurts. I am such a baby and hate good-byes and I hate missing people. When Jason and I were dating I moved to Florida with my family to finish radiation and recover in the heat. We got used to talking on the phone nightly and he came out to visit for New Years. It was such a good time to be together and when he left it took me weeks to recover. It was then that i realized that I couldn't have it all and I had to grow up and made the choice to move back to Utah earlier than I had planned (plus I was now engaged and that made the heart ache ten times worse) So now I am with Jason and now we have Jack and it is so wonderful to be able to come home and be with my family. My heart aches because I loved being able to see my mom and dad and Kate everyday. It was so fun to watch them all play and take care of Jack and they were so good at letting me relax. It was also good to be around my parents because I could see why I am the way I am . It was fun to see that I had some of the same habits of my mom and some of my dad and it was really nice to feel that way, almost that you know you belong to them because you are like them. That is the good things about family they really help you put things into perspective. So thanks again mom and dad for the wonderful time and for being such wonderful parents. I have learned so much from you and I can find joy in noticing those things as I go about my daily life here in Utah. I miss you so but will see you real soon.

It is tough to say good-bye

Well our Florida trip is coming to an end. We fly out this afternoon and my heart is sad. It has been so wonderful here and I have loved being with my family and I have felt so good in the warm weather. I hate the end of a visit with my famiy it is so great to fly into the airport and see them and know that you have all this time to spend together but so sad when you are heading to the airport and your time is over and you have to say good-bye. We made some great memories and had some really good times so I guess that is what I have to hang on to lift my spirits. Thanks mom and dad and Kate for wonderful time. This time we will not be away for so long.

3 years and counting

Today is our three year wedding anniversary. It seems like we have been married a whole lot longer, not in a bad way but when we look at all that has happened and all that we have been through these last three years we have been quite productive I would say. I just want to say thanks to Jason and what an amazing guy he truly is. He has truly been the best caretaker and has really stepped it up these last two years helping with Jackson. He had to take over as both the mom and dad when Jack was just three months old and he did great. It has been a wonderful three years to be together and we have become so close with all that we have gone through I know it will just continue to get better. Thank you Jase for being the man of my dreams!

Sea World and Pool Time

We are continuing to have a good time here in Florida. Yesterday we went to Sea World and Jack had a great time. Once again he suprised us all and was a perfect little tripper. He loved to see all the dolphins, fish and whales. We ended up spending the night in Orlando and Jack was all fired up we got him in the pool at the hotel and he went crazy thrashing around like a dolphin, he didn't go to bed till 11:00 but he partied to the end. Today we got back to mom and dad's and Jack wanted back into the water again. He had such fun with his Grammie and Grandad. He is a warm weather baby, and he sure loves the water.

We Made It!

We made it to Flordia...after all the setbacks we have had over the last two and a half years we finally touched down in Tampa yesterday at 4:21 Florida time. I still think that I am in shock that I am finally here. We had planned to come for spring break and then I had the first transplant and then we had to cancel the Thanskgiving trip to prepare for my second transplant. So this is quite a milestone for the Balls family. Jack was such a great traveler, he watched his movies and played with his books and was such a good boy. He however fell asleep as soon as we got off the plane once he was placed in his stoller. He finally woke up when we were headed to dinner and was shocked to see Grammie, Grandad and Aunt Kate. He took a while to warm up but he has been entertaining us. It is so warm here I am loving it and the boys had a good time in the pool this morning. Jack is in heaven because there are so many toys including a whole table that he can drive his cars and choo- choos on! We are thrilled to be here and can't believe we are here. I had dreamed of this during all those dark days of cancer just being here and relaxing in the sun and it has begun!

Playing with Grammie and all his cars....he is in heaven

Balls Family Fun!

This weekend we had a Balls Family Party. It was Seth's birthday and everyone got together. It was fun to be with all the family, it sure is growing and Jack loves to be with his Papa, Grandma and all his Aunts, Uncles and of course his cousin Tyler who has fun boy toys. We had a good time and Jack was our little performer. It is nice to have family close, especially all in the same state. Here are some pictures I took this weekend of Jack enjoying his family time. Jack and I are worn out from all the weekend fun that we have just had a movie and nap day hopefully we will recover soon. Thanks Balls family for the fun weekend we love you all!

This video is of Jack attacking his piece of birthday Cake. Who needs a fork?